Today, Tomorrow and The Next Day

All the times you showed me grace - how vast the sum of them.

As 2011 came to a close I, like most people, took a second to look back at what this past year has been.  2011 was a year of the unimaginable becoming reality.  My life has completely changed this year.  Here I am, living in England with so many amazing people new to my life about to embark upon yet another life changing year.  2012 has a lot to live up to but I'm ready and excited for what it will bring.  It is sure to be incredible.

The other day I took looking back at this year a bit further.  I was doing this thing where I sit and listen to music (in this case Ascend the Hill) and write whatever comes to mind and just let my stream of consciousness flow and that the words I wrote down would flow from my heart.  So I began with the first thing that popped into my head -

All the times you showed me grace - how vast the sum of them.  

I don't deserve this grace but You have freely given it.

Towards the end of this stream of consciousness, I basically asked that God would show me more of who He is today, tomorrow and the next day.  He answered right in that moment.  I realized that He has always been with me.  I know I have heard that countless times but it really hit me in this moment.  I thought back to that shy little 7th grader with glasses and braces who wouldn't say a word to anyone and was in the very beginnings of this incredible relationship with a God who simply loved me.  He was there throughout Jr High and high school on each trip I went on with church, in those moments during worship nights when I would just cry, in my little acts of service, in those simple moments driving in my car when I felt a joy I couldn't contain or explain.  He was there through every bit of it and what's even more amazing is that He is still very much here with me and always will be.  My life has always been in His hands.  He never changes but He is right there at every twist and turn changing me into the person He has created me to be.

I did this stream of consciousness 3 days ago, and God answered my prayer by showing me more of who He is today, tomorrow and the next day - 3 days.  Each day, something new and each new something makes me long for more.

I am so excited to see what this year brings.  I can try to think and plan what I think will or should happen this year, but I know that I can't begin to imagine what God can.  This year is in God's hands and I think He will once again make the unimaginable become reality and surprise us all with what He wants to do in our lives when we let Him.

All the times you showed me grace - how vast the sum of them.